A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER

There's so many FLOWER in my garden
Always look forward to be picked
There are red, white, yellow and also purple
The color varied....

I don't know which one that i can choose..
Which one who can accompany of the rest of my life..
God...
Of course...that's you God
Who can give me a clue..
For my self ..For my life..For my future..
A beautiful FLOWER...

Mom..Dad..please the series, wreaths
I beg your blessing...
I beg your says..
If later there's no acceptable
Just says...

Many FLOWER wilts before grows
There're beautiful, but the fragrance isn't always beautiful shape
It may even thorns pierced of my heart
Hurt of my love...

But...
I believed in you, God !!
There will be ONE FLOWER that you'll give to me
A FLOWER that will be fragrant of my life...

There's No Blame...

There's no way to blame the time
There's no way to blame the state of
You come in when i needed you
Of my problem with life

The more that i love you
The more i must let you go further in my life
Didn't want to hurt you heart more than this
We can't to be together and share

One day..yes one day..You will get someone who will be there for you
Let this be a distant memory, two heart that never blend.

I'm sorry to let you enter into my life
I'm sorry to let you go
Although i don't want to....

NOW - SHAVIN

Now, It's time for me to put off all my gorgeous clothes.
Maybe next day i'll look at them just for a reminder, how incredible i am.
Now, i'm just nothing!
With a new life at the beginning, trying to re-compose my difference path of life at the same place that i was.

Now I realize..nothing seem harder than walking under the dark shadow of a blackest memory.
But here i am.I have to find my destiny without any lights
Sometimes i yell for nothing...sometimes i scream for help..sometimes all i can do is only cry.
Cuz it's to hard to make a move. I really need some help that truly i can't get.
Cuz thet won't hear me...
There's no foot steps i can follow.
Don't know which way to go.But i must keep on walking to find that light..
The light of my mighty god ..
The light which give me a spirit and love
Only for my lovely SHAVIN ( Marsha - Marvin )

The Darkside of Life

Ya Allah..
When my heart has been tarnished
When the soul has been pierced gray black
When the walls of my feelings have been handed over all
You give me the test of life....

It's so pain Ya Rabb...
So sore Ya Rahman..
Hurt of my heart so umpteenth time
Don't give me a trial at this moment
I still haven't been able to finish it...

Recover and save me from this pain..
Give me to see authenticity and bad.
Make me peace falsity of this lesson

Ya Allah...
Find me with my soulmate..
Give me in my beauty soul..
Unite us in a loving marriage and soft...
Make it loyalty in the cavity of our love..
Confident in the will of thy Lord ! Sincere and strengthened my heart

" Branding Me "

Branding Me atau bahasa kerennya Merk kamu atau juga bisa dibilang label diri....Kata kata ini aku kenal saat 2 tahun lalu saat masih di perusahaan lama dengan label telekomunikasi dengan salah satu seniorku Pakde Banar.
Kata kata bijak yang pernah keluar dimulut beliau adalah "Awakmu wis duwe branding nang kene, branding mu iku..playboy, akeh sing naksir, arek ganteng, akeh senyume ". Sambil tersenyum penuh malu dan berpikir ucapan beliau antara Bangga atau malah Kecewa..Ternyata setiap orang punya penilaian terhadap diri kita  hingga terkadang lupa sudut pandang masing masing orang itu berbeda.

Branding yang muncul dan melekat dalam diriku akan selalu muncul kemana pun aku singgah.Apa perlu ditinggalkan branding tersebut atau harus dipertahankan ? Pertanyaaanku itu muncul saat diriku mulai ingin merubah jati diri yang lama dengan yang baru karena bagi orang lain branding yang aku milikin itu adalah " NEGATIF". 

Apa mudah merubah Branding tersebut ??Wow..benar benar gampang gampang susah...
Ada mantan preman pasti ada mantan playboy hehehehh
Asalkan jangan sampai ada Mantan ustadz....wah bisa berabe dunia......

Tapi itulah perjalanan hidup yang kulalui melakukan pembaharuan diri dari banyaknya permasalahan dan pengalaman hidup ...Semua harus berubah...dan itu tidak mudah..
Perubahan butuh pengorbanan...dan Pengorbanan butuh sesuatu yang konsisten....

Dan saya kira label " Branding Me " bukan saja hanya di saya saja .Masih banyak teman teman diluar mempunyai label " Branding Me lainnya...dan mungkin lebih parah daripada saya.
Selama " Branding Me " diri kalian positif lanjutkan dan pertahankan......
tetapi seandainya negatif...
Seperti bahasa anak saya bilang " Please deh pa.....dirubah!!!"heheheheh

Branding Me ....hal yang membuat diri kita dikenal oleh lingkungan kita....
Berubahlah yang positif sebelum kau dirubah oleh lingkungan kamu...